Another factor as to why the magic mushrooms have been sitting on my dresser since Christmastime is because I've been exposed to a lot of life's horror since my acid taking teenage years, where back then my psyche was pretty much unpolluted.
Maybe it's an unfounded fear but who knows what horrors I might dredge up from my memories and have it come to life in real 'right in your face' time and I won't be able to say 'okay that's enough, stop now" as I am able to do with out of body experiences.
I am not interested in delving in to life's horrors at my mature age rather I'm into chill and find the good in people and life. I suppose the trip could go that way, finding the awesome, such as exploring the oneness. But, I been there done that with OBE but I wasn't ready to explore it and I wanted to be back home, on Mother Earth.
It's the same with weed. I must have smoked weed every day at high school as a teenager and a little afterwards as a young working adult. These days I don't take it at all because it just does not do much for me in the way of benefits. As a teenager I suppose it was a social group thing where we all shared the experience and laughs. If I want to chill, I'll listen to chill or trance music and Zen out or lightly meditate for relaxation.
As for alcohol, well I love me a glass of red wine but lately I make watered down spritzers with electrolytes and juices for added health benefits. Even with alcohol, too much and the benefits are lost.
As for exploring the oneness, that will come in due time and I will have all the quantum time(?) or instantaneousness to know it.
Maybe it's an unfounded fear but who knows what horrors I might dredge up from my memories and have it come to life in real 'right in your face' time and I won't be able to say 'okay that's enough, stop now" as I am able to do with out of body experiences.
I am not interested in delving in to life's horrors at my mature age rather I'm into chill and find the good in people and life. I suppose the trip could go that way, finding the awesome, such as exploring the oneness. But, I been there done that with OBE but I wasn't ready to explore it and I wanted to be back home, on Mother Earth.
It's the same with weed. I must have smoked weed every day at high school as a teenager and a little afterwards as a young working adult. These days I don't take it at all because it just does not do much for me in the way of benefits. As a teenager I suppose it was a social group thing where we all shared the experience and laughs. If I want to chill, I'll listen to chill or trance music and Zen out or lightly meditate for relaxation.
As for alcohol, well I love me a glass of red wine but lately I make watered down spritzers with electrolytes and juices for added health benefits. Even with alcohol, too much and the benefits are lost.
As for exploring the oneness, that will come in due time and I will have all the quantum time(?) or instantaneousness to know it.
Truth fears no question. Anon