I don't know where to turn , RN is the only place for me to talk about this

[MrJesterium]

I've lost interest in most of activities I once enjoyed, except music, roblox and some short videos on youtube, but now those interests have been sliding as well.

I almost forgot to mention this, but there's an essay that delves into why this is happening: https://psychosynthesisresources.com/Nie...flicts.pdf

Specifically, Dr. Roberto Assagioli wrote, "Personal interests that previously occupied the bulk of his attention start to fade, their importance and value to diminish. New problems present themselves that prompt him to questiont he direction of life." It helps a lot to know at which stage of a spiritual crisis you're at.

RA's ideas are good and sound (though he's obscured by Carl Jung), but his organization's probably compromised.

My hobby would be music, playing some instrument, and I've tried multiple times in my life to learn to play some instrument, but then life and mental health issues get in the way and it stops.

Both my parents were pianists, but I had no talent for piano. Nietzsche once pointed out that Schopenhauer enjoyed playing the flute, which made him question if he was as pessimistic as people believed. The truth is, you don't have to be able to play a musical instrument to be a musically senstive person.

I used to play the flute in school, but like you, that stuff got in the way. So I turned to philosophy (not the modern bs peddled in academies, I mean Seneca, Marcus Aurelius, Epiktetos). Sokrates-Plato hinted about the relationship between music and philosophy: music resumes where words leave off, and vice versa. By philosophizing, Sokrates was already composing music.

I would love to hear more about the 2025 plan of scientists to talk to the deceased?

I don't know the exact details, and it's not like scientists will be on board with this right away. A famine will likely force them to search for a cure for diseases, leaving no stone unturned, so they'll stumble across
a new world. Ghosts can't convince them, but maybe seeing phenomena with their expanded organic sight will make them reconsider everything they believed they knew about natural laws.

I would love to travel with my mom, but it's stressful because she's now 85. I would constantly just worry more about her, then when we're home and she has her comforts, etc.  I imagine something happening during a 8 hour flight, not fun to say the least.

My mom could probably relate to that, she worries about leaving our grandma by herself after the caregiver leaves. (Our grandma is 99 years old, just 4 years older than your aunt.)

I guess a sudden emergency during a flight would be anxiety-inducing.

Well, who's to say the next trip will be just as bad? The next life is slightly better than the one before. Also, history doesn't repeat itself the same way as before.

I don't know how my son found out that I was depressed. I certainly never talked to anyone about it. I know I gently grilled him when he had said this, and he just smiled in his way and would not say more. He's very wise and observant for his age. He was born a wise adult IMO.

Maybe kids just know, like how animals know how to do things without being taught or like how a mom might sense when their kid is in danger. Nikola Tesla wrote about how someone who was highly sensitive/observant could anticipate dangers.

What kind of subjects is he interested in learning about?

For me, the only place to travel to that is worthwhile atm is Europe, as I'm forced stuck in the US. And with barely any family there that gives a crap about me it's just depressing to visit.

Has the US no shortage of natural places, landmarks, cultural sites, etc. to visit?

If I could go to the park or library every day, I would choose that over being stuck at home.

None of my relatives talk with me nowadays, my interactions with them are as superficial as making small talk with strangers. I don't go outside for social company, which can be soul-crushing (it'd be better for you to find some interest to occupy your attention with), but to draw observations from nature by myself, with my mom, or a close friend (if I had one IRL).