(07-17-2023, 10:47 PM)NightskyeB4Dawn Wrote: People spend more time caught up in their reactionary mind than they do in their hearts. We have a problem when people can tell you without hesitation, what they are willing to die for, but find it difficult to tell you what they would live for.
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When you get to be my age, the thing that you are truly secure in knowing, is that your time is short, and every waking day is a miracle. So death is not feared. It has become a silent partner that is follows you like a shadow.
Living is a hot potato. Trying to hold on it to it can burn you.
There's a lot of truth there.
I've faced death several times in my life, and each time my attitude was "well here we are. Let's do this! I never planned on living forever anyhow." I've never been afraid to die.
But not too long ago, I was pretty sure I had one foot in the grave and the other on a banana peel, and this was it. In that moment, I realized I was still not afraid to die - I'm pretty sure I know what comes after, and if I'm wrong I won't know anything at all, much less that I was wrong, so it doesn't matter - but I also realized that what terrifies me is leaving folks who may need what little help I am behind to fend for themselves until their time comes, too.
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