My well being depends upon you to engage 'it all'

[quintessentone]

Nevermind, I expected nobody to get it.

Care to elaborate?

Perhaps not grasping your point or referencing whatever it is you're talking about, I'll throw in a response anyway.

Well being and happiness or in other words how you feel about your life dependent on other's engagement will always be temporary with the key being these things need to come from within rather than externally.

Life is short. Too short to not say what you mean or not be the real you in the meaningless pursuit of gaining the validation, acceptance and favor of others to make you feel whole or as measurement of your well being.

Authenticity and directness can be perceived as a challenge by those not accustomed to people behaving that way and it may come across as arrogance, rudeness or something unintended. I think it's basic human nature to want other's to like you or feel connection and be part of a group and this desire often tempers or inhibits true expression.

I recognize doing this in my own behavior at times but truly know who I really am, maybe more so than a lot of folks because I had to confront my differences early in life and in some situations, feel discretion is the better part of valor and I'll play the game like everyone else but for the most part, as those that know me will attest, I usually speak my mind without reservation. The thing is though, I really don't need anyone else to define my well being or self worth but at the same time don't want to be an asshole either but inevitably, I will piss some people off anyway. Being too real can make some people uncomfortable.

At the end of the day when it's just me, myself and I knowing what we know, we get along pretty well with ourself without anyone else's help defining us. I would not have made if very far in life without relying me, not others, to get me to this ripe old age and into the future whatever that may be.

What I was really trying to get at was that within this forum community my well being or willingness to stay and engage and your engagement of 'it all' means to do just what everyone seems to be doing here on this thread...go with it, engage with it by being yourself and rely on each other to try to understand, discuss and have a little fun too here on RN.

Sometimes I wonder if reality is a fantasy and it looks like some here may also be wondering that too. Just one part of 'it all' that I had in my mind at the time of posting this thread.

If I worried about how others would take my directness I'd never speak up or venture out to forums like this to engage in wonderful discussions. Everyone reacts differently or the same, depends on perhaps the person and/or the delivery of the sentiment or opinion or thought. 

So it's obvious we all choose to engage here, but the well being of all of us depends on not jumping to immediate judgements or first impressions because nobody here can really know someone or what they are going through in life that may make them act a certain way or have a bad day.

This form of digital communication makes it doubly difficult to get one's message or context or intent across in the exact way they meant it without typing a long wall of explanatory text.

Sometimes I will post one sentence concise thoughts which in my mind seems quite straight forward, but sometimes it is not. See how the fantasy sentence response varied?

So thanks for prodding deeper, thanks for wanting to understand, I appreciate the effort.

So yes this thread was a deeper dive into this forum member's engagement and intention with myself and each other, but also frivolous in wondering and/or putting it out there that sometimes reality seems like fantasy to me, and vice versa.

Thanks to everyone for the inquisitive and friendly engagement because right now some of my family members are going through rough times which is really bringing me down. So if I semi-drunk post, please be kind.

"We don’t create a fantasy world to escape reality. We create it to be able to stay.” – Lynda Barry"