Existing -not living- with BPD

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Well, rogue-nation, it's not borderline personality disorder. 

It's Aspergers syndrome.

A form of autism, for those who don't know.

This explains everything. This also means I am "disabled" by both medical and legal standards.

No wonder I've struggled so much. I'm 48 and have battled this my whole life.....completely unaware. 

Just wanted to finish this up for you guys and gals. I'll be a ghost for a while, while I get myself situated with this.

This is why I struggle so much with the social aspect of life.

This is my shadow. 

I'm good with it. I make sense to me now.

Cheers

https://www.autismtruths.org/index.php?p...rssyndrome

Autism spectrum disorder is a condition related to brain development that affects how a person perceives and socializes with others, causing problems in social interaction and communication. It includes conditions that previously were considered separate, including autism, Asperger's syndrome, childhood disintegrative disorder and an unspecified form of pervasive developmental disorder.

Autism affects children and adults in three areas: communication, social interaction and behaviors. Children with autism spectrum disorder may struggle with recognizing their emotions and may feel them more intensely. Regulating their anger and frustration can be difficult and lead to intense bursts of emotions. Children with autism also have higher rates of anxiety and depression.

Crikey mate!

Was this diagnosed through an MD or a Psychiatrist.

I like you explanation.  I have a close mate who's son has suffered this for many years.

Sorry to hear,

Bally)

MD at this point, but the psychiatrist will be next.

My symptoms getting worse with time, and not better was what lead to further diagnosis. Aspergers is mistaken for BPD often.

To be honest, I have felt very awkward in social settings. I've learned to camouflage this, apparently, but with bad/unhealthy behaviors. 

I'm just glad there's been a reason for the struggle. Not understanding what's been going on is what's been so difficult on me personally. 

I'm actually sort of relieved, tbh.

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Correction: I was wrong about the IQ statement that was made in the original post. That was bad info that got mixed in while I was first learning about BPD. IQ has nothing to do with borderline personality disorder. 

My weird intellect plays into the autism though. It's why I'm so gifted in some areas, and so incapable in others. I've always said, "The really hard stuff is easy to me, but the easy stuff is  hard for me." 

My apologies for the misinformation. Not sure how that got mixed in. Late night youtube, probably.