(07-04-2024, 03:27 AM)Ninurta Wrote: I don't worry too much about the world any more. I did my bit to save it, and failed, and only then came to the realization that no one can save it, and it's not going to save itself. It just refuses to even try. What the young do not understand is that the world is a really big place, just too big a place compared to one person, and there are too many other folks working against you trying to destroy it. That realization gave me an "I don't care" attitude, a "nothing matters and so what if it did?" attitude.
There is a reason it's called "clown world". it's a funny place, if you know how to watch it unfold. The people in it are, largely, just plain silly, and that amuses me. So, I sit back, and watch, and laugh. Sometimes I give advice, knowing that no one is going to follow it, and hilarity generally ensues when they don't - but they were told, y'know? I don't care if they follow the advice or not, which is probably a good thing since they usually don't... they know a lot better than me. I'm just that crazy old guy that talks out of his ass all the time. Then, when their actions inevitably end in disaster or semi-disaster, it's funny to watch them backpedal.
Kinda like now, as the Bidenites backpedal because they charged forward without a clue how to win back the voters they are losing. That's just plain funny. It won't matter of course - whomever is going to win has already been selected, and the votes to bring them over the top are being printed in China as we speak. Why get overwrought about it? There's nothing we can do to change it... so we might as well sit back and laugh. Laughing is a lot healthier than stressing over the stuff you can't affect.
And the people! They're all over the top, bad at acting because they put too much effort in to it - and it shows - and most are simply caricatures of what a human being used to be. You know, caricatures. False images that have exaggerated features that make people look more like themselves that their actual self does.
No one thinks any more. Everyone just reacts, and reacting means that whomever they are reacting to is actually controlling them. All the controller has to do is pull the right string and watch them dance on cue. That goes for "Liberals" and "Conservatives" both - whether political, social, financial, or what have you. It's a "clown world", and like clowns, every move folks make is an exaggeration of what pre-"new normal" normal folks would have made.
All of that combines to make life one hell of a comedy show. For folks who are still uptight about stuff, relax. Ain't no one getting out of this life alive, so nothing matters... and so what if it did?
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That's the one thing I was never able to do...
Not care.
I didn't possess this ability. Even when there was nothing I could do, it still pained me to not be able to help someone. Even if its just with a little guidance, or motivation. A good ol' "you got this" can really make a difference in someone's situation.
I had never thought about changing the world. I grew up believing Jesus had already done that, and that we were supposed to be a joyful people.
It was when the realization of this lie hit me is when I became lost in the what now.
My biggest frustration is seeing these misguidings. How smart people fool dumb people just because they can.
Also things Like how a big 6'0" 4th grader steals everyone else lunch money, just because he can. Things of this nature.
I more or less just wanted to make or leave the world around me a slightly better place. As I've stumbled through my life, I've always been lifting people up who needed it. (Its just me) I was a fiercely loyal friend to all those close to me. I heat drug addiction by the time I was 22 years old. Then had to watch buddy after buddy, friend after friend die from drugs, or stupid living. Friends that I had tried my hardest to encourage to get off the drugs and clean themselves up. Yet, they are gone.
It's as you said, you try, you do your best even knowing people aren't going to listen.
Some people I can just let it roll right off my back like that. Then some times this just isn't possible.
When I had gotten clean, my son had been born, I was breathing the sober air, and the fog had been lifted, and I was in a place in my life that I was really starting to see some improvement I had felt a duty to help in some way with rehabilitation. This was something I felt was a strong calling on my life. To the point I had considered writing a book about my journey and success of overcoming my addiction. I did all that I could as the years went along to achieve this calling. I had even gone so far as to shoot for a degree in Biblical studies and Ministry. As this was going on I noticed how the drugs kept getting heavier and heavier, stronger and stronger, more addictive and more life and body crushing. By the time I got to the point I was ready and I took a good hard look at the drug world I thought to myself, "There’s no way to get these people off of this stuff."
In my day I think the numbers were like 1 in 100,000 beat their addiction. Now it's probably something like 1 in a million that can actually come off of that junk and lead a normal successful life.
Fast forward to today, and I still care, but I throw my hands up finally. I do, finally, agree that it's time to hang that up. Find me a quiet spot. And go coo coo in p3ace.
Nature and solitude are the remedy im needing.
The Son of God once said, "Hurry, darkness is coming soon. When no one can work."
I think we are in that literal darkness right now He was referring to.
But nah, the "change this world" I'm looking forward to will happen once the evil has been wiped from existence. That's the End game I'm looking for.
They live.
We sleep.
We sleep.