I have to strongly agree with the fact that people will twist things; after they've used you up, or found your boundary.
I too am a loner. Truth be told I have always felt alone. Even in a crowd of people. I have had two people in this world I've been completely comfortable with, but other than that I always seem to not quite "fit in."
I also seem to attract a type. I am the type that is (or tries to be meek) very giving. I care (too much, I think). Basically, I am soft hearted.
I seem to attract people who want to take advantage of that. To the point I feel as if I need to stop being so caring and giving. Lately I have been taken advantage of by people who pretended to be my "friend" until I stopped giving, or didn't agree with them, or wouldn't talk smack about whoever they're mad at
And so on.
I am a man who has never known a stranger. I have the ability to "befriend" anyone; regardless of differences. I see people for their hearts (is how I've always put it).
Lately, though, I have had no desire to even talk with the person standing next to me. This being not my character at all.
I have also been single for 4+ years for the simple fact of drama. I can't stand it, and want no part of it. So, at 47 I have decided I rather live my life out being single and deal with things alone.
My "circle" died. Best friend (my cousin) in the world, gone. For me, The fun and laughter died with him. And being that I could never replace what I had in that friendship I just sort of gave up on thinking I'd ever have a friend like that again.
Now, don't let my sob story make you think I am unhappy. I have joy in my life. I laugh and carry on as I always have. It's just different now.
So, I get it. I've tried a couple times in the last few years to bond with someone. But, it has bitten me in the ass each time.
I'm 47, and I've simply just given up. I've learned to be happy on my own.
That may seem sad, but my joy comes from seeing others happy and blessed. And my overflowing joy comes from helping others; any way I can.
(Hint: "Bodhisattva"Style)
I too am a loner. Truth be told I have always felt alone. Even in a crowd of people. I have had two people in this world I've been completely comfortable with, but other than that I always seem to not quite "fit in."
I also seem to attract a type. I am the type that is (or tries to be meek) very giving. I care (too much, I think). Basically, I am soft hearted.
I seem to attract people who want to take advantage of that. To the point I feel as if I need to stop being so caring and giving. Lately I have been taken advantage of by people who pretended to be my "friend" until I stopped giving, or didn't agree with them, or wouldn't talk smack about whoever they're mad at
And so on.
I am a man who has never known a stranger. I have the ability to "befriend" anyone; regardless of differences. I see people for their hearts (is how I've always put it).
Lately, though, I have had no desire to even talk with the person standing next to me. This being not my character at all.
I have also been single for 4+ years for the simple fact of drama. I can't stand it, and want no part of it. So, at 47 I have decided I rather live my life out being single and deal with things alone.
My "circle" died. Best friend (my cousin) in the world, gone. For me, The fun and laughter died with him. And being that I could never replace what I had in that friendship I just sort of gave up on thinking I'd ever have a friend like that again.
Now, don't let my sob story make you think I am unhappy. I have joy in my life. I laugh and carry on as I always have. It's just different now.
So, I get it. I've tried a couple times in the last few years to bond with someone. But, it has bitten me in the ass each time.
I'm 47, and I've simply just given up. I've learned to be happy on my own.
That may seem sad, but my joy comes from seeing others happy and blessed. And my overflowing joy comes from helping others; any way I can.
(Hint: "Bodhisattva"Style)