Glad you're still kicking up dust Chief! Grief effects everyone differently so whatever you are doing that works for you- keep doing that! And good on you for keeping big decisions on the back burner. Making major decisions during highly emotional periods never works out well. When you are ready you will know and when that time comes don't be afraid to start something or somewhere new!
As an American it's your responsibility to have your own strategic duck stockpile. You can't expect the government to do it for you.