It is tough trying to keep the darkness at bay, especially with kids, because we don't want them to see us like that. I'm 38, and I move in and out of happiness/anxiety/depression. I have two young daughters, and they're a joy 85% of the time. They truly keep me going. I'm not sure how I'm gonna do when they move out. It's like a countdown for me. Only 8 years until my oldest is 18. So I try to savor it, and it pisses me off when the depression comes, because I know it's sometimes time that got wasted. I don't think that way in an episode of depression, it hits me after the fact.
I sort of fell into the same pattern as you. No friends, didn't care to have any, all that matters is my family. Things get repetitive like that though. Wake up, work, shower, see the kids for a few hours, eat, sleep, rinse and repeat. Getting in shape helped for me, it's a healthy hobby and makes you feel great, physically and mentally. I wish I could offer better advice, but I haven't figured it out either, yet. I miss playing hockey, so I've been planning on buying some equipment just to go play pickup games. Maybe a hobby from your past that you really loved would help you feel like the old you.
My kids have me playing Roblox with them too. They showed me all their delinquent ways of robbing houses in Brookhaven, I have a blast pulling heists with them ?
I sort of fell into the same pattern as you. No friends, didn't care to have any, all that matters is my family. Things get repetitive like that though. Wake up, work, shower, see the kids for a few hours, eat, sleep, rinse and repeat. Getting in shape helped for me, it's a healthy hobby and makes you feel great, physically and mentally. I wish I could offer better advice, but I haven't figured it out either, yet. I miss playing hockey, so I've been planning on buying some equipment just to go play pickup games. Maybe a hobby from your past that you really loved would help you feel like the old you.
My kids have me playing Roblox with them too. They showed me all their delinquent ways of robbing houses in Brookhaven, I have a blast pulling heists with them ?