(07-30-2024, 12:38 AM)FlickerOfLight Wrote: Hello again, ancientlight.
I had you're story on my mind throughout the night last night, and then again this evening. I read it all again and we do share a lot in common.
I had recently stopped listening to music, which was huge for me. Music being one of my great loves. I had also stopped enjoying movies even more recently. Which is another one of my favorite things to do to unwind and escape this reality; even if for a moment. I was coming out of that depression that I had mentioned and an opportunity arose for me, and I ended up taking on a new hobby. I started to garden a little bit. I've planted a few things out in the yard that I get to now learn more about. I bought a bougainvillea plant because of its beauty, but knew nothing about the thing. I read a little on the plant, and then found the ideal spot in the yard for it, and now I have learned a lot about it as it has grown and taking care of it. I had also made a pot with three different types of flowers. This has become my baby. I have come to realize that I love gardening. I have a routine with everything, and when I am "gardening" everything else dissappear. It's like nothing else exists but those plants. They give me a break from all the thinking. Even though it does not consume all of my day, it is nice to be able to do something that clears my mind and my spirit at the same time. I'm at total peace when caring for those plants. I wanted to share this with you yesterday, but got tunnel visoned in my thoughts, and so I came back to suggest taking up a new hobby. Something relaxing to you. Something new.
Hope this post finds you well.
I thought this before of you as well, that we share some similarities. Thanks for the suggestion. I would enjoy gardening, if I wasn't in heatwave Florida and add bugs to that. No , I hate stepping a foot into the garden here (there's snapping turtles as well).
My hobby would be music, playing some instrument, and I've tried multiple times in my life to learn to play some instrument, but then life and mental health issues get in the way and it stops.
Right now I'm just in survival mode, trying to get through each day, and happy if I make it to the end of the day without any major events.
I hope your day is going well at least.
(07-30-2024, 12:59 AM)MrJesterium Wrote: After 2025, scientists will begin making discoveries in another unseen world (not astral), which will enable them to prove the existence of life after death. Dannion Brinkley might finally get around to restoring ancient facilities and their functions, allowing survivors to talk with their deceased loved ones face-to-face, without the risks of seance/mediumship.Thanks for your reply. I would love to hear more about the 2025 plan of scientists to talk to the desceased?
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(07-29-2024, 06:01 AM)ancientlight Wrote: I worry if I were to travel without my mom, something may happen to her while I'm in the Netherlands. To travel with my mom would be just as stressful.Why would going with her be stressful?
I think it'd be a good idea to get back in touch with your ancestral land. A lot of European countries won't be around for much longer. Whether your time is spent with your mother or your aunt, you should strive to make the last days of their life the happiest it could be.
(07-29-2024, 06:01 AM)ancientlight Wrote: Worst is my son saying he knows I'm depressed (he's 13). I thought I hid it pretty well.When did he find out, how has this affected him? Does it feel like he keeps something from you?
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(07-29-2024, 12:58 PM)ancientlight Wrote: I have a hard time accepting that things will never return to those happier days. I basically spend my days silently grieving my lost happier days...I would urge you to start making new happy memories to replace the old ones.
I would love to travel with my mom, but it's stressful because she's now 85. I would constantly just worry more about her, then when we're home and she has her comforts, etc. I imagine something happening during a 8 hour flight, not fun to say the least.
We would stay at my aunts usually, but my aunt is now 95 and suffering from dementia. It would be depressing beyond words for both me and mom, if I remember what our last trip was like. It's just not the same. Also , it's depressing realizing we would have to go back 'home' after a few weeks. Just not worth it anymore at this point sadly.
I don't know how my son found out that I was depressed. I certainly never talked to anyone about it. I know I gently grilled him when he had said this , and he just smiled in his way and would not say more. He's very wise and observant for his age. He was born a wise adult IMO.
I would love to make new happy memories , just not that easy. For me , the only place to travel to that is worthwhile atm is Europe, as I'm forced stuck in the US. And with barely any family there that gives a crap about me it's just depressing to visit. Same with my old best friend. Too depressing. Zero interest in travelling to other countries.
I'm at least doing a bit better today, the usual up & downs off course.
Hope you're doing well.